Tuesday, December 29, 2009

1st Fill + I'm a Moron

Yesterday I got my first fill. They added 4cc's. I won't go into too much detail b/c I'm sure most of you know what it's like to get a fill. If you don't, leave a comment and I'll get back to you!

Afterward, I was sitting in the waiting room drinking my water (which took forever) and this lady came up to the front from the back. I guess she had her initial consultation. She asked me if I'd had the procedure and wanted to know about my experience. I told her about being self-pay, my surgery day, the post-surgery agony, the gas, my weight loss, the process of restriction, etc. I think it really helped her. I know I would have loved to have spoken w/ someone face-to-face prior to having my surgery. Sure, I read LBT and went to 2 seminars, but nothing beats picking someone's mind who has had it done and hearing what they liked and didn't like. Before I left she asked me if I would do it again. I said "absolutely! but ask me again in 11 months!" I still have so much to go through before I can truly say if I would do it again or not...but more than likely I think I'll be happy with my decision :)

So, after slooooooooowly drinking my water, I left to run errands. Let me tell you, that fill made me tight. I know it won't last and it is just inflamation, but all day I felt like something was stuck in the back of my throat. Not a pleasant feeling. So, about 2 I ate half a cup of lf cottage cheese. It took me over an hour to eat. No joke.

That night, realizing I couldn't eat any of the food in my house, I went to the grocery store and bought pudding and soup. I had half a cup of broccoli soup, but was CRAVING something sweet. So, I snuck one of my roomie's dog turd cookies (they are the pecan sandies w/ powdered sugar, but my family calls them dog turds). I ate a bite, went down okay. Took another bite, chewed, swallowed, and immediately knew I was stuck. Tried drinking water, but that was stupid b/c when you are stuck nothing can go through the band, not even water. So I hung out with my head over the kitchen sink for about twenty minutes with spit pouring out of my mouth. It felt like my chest would explode. Finally, I was in so much pain I jumped up and down throwing a fit at myself and BOOP! up it came! So, now, I can say I've had my first PB and PBing is different than puking b/c it tastes the same going out as it did going in. No bile to burn your esophagus or horrible taste in your mouth.

So, I have learned my lesson(s): 1. no more dog turds EVER 2. listen to your dr. when they say mushies only for a day or two after a fill 3. just b/c you crave it doesn't mean you can eat it.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

I made a VLog!!

I hope you all enjoy. I actually made two videos. Blogger video was being retarded so I had to switch to YouTube. First video is posted first (obviously) ;)

Monday, December 21, 2009

The dreadful week...

It's the most wonderful / miserable time of the year!!!

I love it! love it! love it!  But this year, I'm hating it.  I'm leaving to drive to Arkansas to see both sides of my family on Wednesday.  My 4 days there will consist of eating, eating, and more eating.  It's all my family knows to do.  And, since I haven't had a fill and am at zero restriction, it's going to be pure misery.

My Mamaw makes delicious Chinese ribs and spring rolls for Christmas Eve.  Christmas day we go to a large family brunch with the most amazing foods.  Later on Christmas Day at my Grandma's we have my beloved chicken and dressing among other favorites.

I've already gained 3 lb. from my lowest post-surgery.  It makes me sad.  I think I'm going to have all of my favorite foods, just in moderation.  And when I get back, I'll get a fill (the 28th).  Hopefully, that will give me just a bit of restriction for my trip down to Tampa the 30th - 2nd.

However!  I did get to open my presents on Friday from Mom & Dad.  I got a Wii Fit Plus!  I've worked out both Saturday and Sunday on it.  My sides are hurting soooo bad from hula hooping.  Last night I discovered skateboarding and am determined to rock it out.  As well as soccer ball headbutting and dominating the snowball fight.  Cycling isn't so bad, either.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

How I got to be fat...part 2.

Amy posted a blog about the eating habits that got her to her highest weight and posed the same question to her readers.  Here is my answer(s).

-I have been a binge eater all of my life.  I would eat and eat and eat until I felt like I would puke.  When the vomitatious feeling let up just a bit, I'd stuff my face even more.  I would make special trips to the grocery store just to get binge food: ice cream, pizza, cookies, candy / chocolate, and pre made foods.

-I ate in secret.  I have been a secret eater since about the age of 7 when I would come home from school and eat a whole box of cereal.  I'd then put the box back in the pantry so it looked like there was still cereal in there.  There wasn't.  I would also blame a lot of the secret eating on my dad.  If my mom asked if I had eaten all of the chocolate chips I'd give her a confused look and she'd say "Dad must have done it."  I wouldn't deny it.

-I would pack snacks for trips.  If I knew I was going to be around my mom on a vacation or trip to grandma's and she would scrutinize everything I ate, I'd pack a box of those delicious yet super fattening chocolate chip granola bars to eat when no one was around.  I'd also pack them if I were going somewhere with my thin friends who never got hungry.

-Fast food.  I <3'd value meals.  I would eat them for lunch, for snacks, for dinner, after a night of heavy drinking, etc.  Fast food is going to be a hard thing for me to give up.

-Eating super fast.  When I was actually hungry and I finally got food, I would eat so fast that I never gave my body time to register it was full.  This will be a challenge to stop, as well.

-Buying bags of chocolate and just sitting in front of the TV and eating it all.

-I hated (and still do hate) 95% of all vegetables.  My homecooked meals consisted of protein and starch / carb.  No veggies.

-Sauces.  I <3 condiments!  Buttermilk ranch, honey mustard, ketchup, tartar sauce, anything I can dip my food in, really.

So, those are my eating habits that lead me to get surgery.  It's funny that as I type these out, I see those that are still going to be a problem for me and those that I don't have to worry about so much anymore.

Monday, December 14, 2009


I actually had a productive day yesterday.  I was really proud of myself.

I got up early and drove to BFE to Bass Pro Shop to get a gift card for my sister's fiance for Christmas.  On the way home I had to stop by Lowes to get a few items and when I got home, I immediately changed my clothes, grabbed my workout log and went to the gym!

I did one of the workouts from Workout Box!!  It was a great workout and, man, are my arms and back sore today.  Not to mention my butt from spinning for my cardio.  Bicycle seats and I do not work.  I feel great, today, though.  I miss the feeling of hurting so good post-workout.

I'm planning on going again tonight.  Typically, I have tennis practice on Monday nights (and that's a major workout), but today it's super rainy so no tennis tonight.  I'll probably just do 45 min. of cardio and tomorrow (crossing my fingers that I go) I'll do the 2nd workout in the series.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009


Last night I broke down and was craving meat.  I haven't had meat since before surgery!  So, dummy me went to BK and got a Whopper.  No soda, no fries, just a Whopper.  I came home, sat at the table, and took a bite.  Then, I took another and another.  I obviously didn't finish it, but realized very quickly that this was incredibly unsatisfying.  I didn't like the taste!  I was almost proud of myself. 

In super happy news, everyone knows I love my Auburn Tigers.  We are going to the Outback Bowl (New Year's Day bowl, what what!!!!) in Tampa.  Welllllll, I will be there!  I'm super excited about that.  One of my bffs lives in Orlando so I'll be celebrating NYE with her and friends and the next day we are trekking it to Tampa to see our amazing Tigers!!!!!

Monday, December 7, 2009

Bad Cody!!!!

Yes, I have been bad.  I'm upset w/ myself, but I'm ready to work it out.

I usually weigh myself on Mondays, but not today, my friends.  I'm scared to look at the scale.  I have been eating a lot of junk, but atleast it's been in smaller quantities.  I also have not been eating just mushies.  I'm eating some solids.  NOT GOOD!  I don't want to stretch my pouch.

So, I'm back on the wagon today.  A prepackaged smoothie for breakfast, cottage cheese and a thinner soup for lunch, a snack of yogurt probably, and chili for dinner. 

The new tennis season also starts today.  Well, it doesn't start until January, but practices start tonight!  It's my mixed team so that means I'll play with boys!  Most are sooooo not attractive, but they are super fun.  So, I'm looking forward to getting my exercise tonight and have also printed out a few workouts from  Need to get BUFF!  Hahahaha.

Happy Monday, kids.  Stay positive and keep on keepin' on!!!

Wednesday, December 2, 2009


I was just reading up at LBT to get my daily inspiration and found a post from someone who was banded in early November who says they want to give up and get the LB taken out b/c they have only lost 12 lb in the 21 days post surgery.


Ridiculous is what I say about that poster.  If they wanted to just drop lbs as quickly as possible, they should have gone for the gastric bypass.  We are told that this is going to be a long, slow process.  That the band is a TOOL and not a quick fix. 

It simply amazes me that people are willing to give up so quick!  We want to lose weight at a healthy pace (it helps with the excess skin!  helloooooo).  Personally, I don't want to drop a lot of weight immediately.  I want it to be a slow but continous thing.

We have to stay positive and motivated, y'all!!!


Recently, I purchased an iPod shuffle just for workouts.  I haven't done it yet, but I plan to load it with only fast paced, motivational music to keep me pumped during workouts.  Currently, my iPhone is my mp3 player and it's way too heavy for workouts.  They don't make good armbands for it so the shuffle is my best option since it's small and lightweight!

I haven't had a migraine in about 2 weeks, which is huge for me, until yesterday.  Yesterday it hit me like a ton of bricks.  I had to go to the grocery store immediately after work to pick up some ingredients for a healthy spinach artichoke dip I promised to make for my tennis team's end of season party tonight.  By the time I got out of Publix, I was miserable.  Then, I had to sit in traffic for an hour.  I thought I was going to vomit in my car my head was hurting so bad.  I still have a residual headache after taking 2 Treximets over the course of the migraine.

If you've ever had a migraine, you know what I mean when I say it's the worst experience ever.  And, unfortunately, I usually get them at least once a week.  I know they will never go away since I've had them since I was 7, but I sure will be glad when they become more infrequent once I get this weight off!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Making the Best of Bandster Hell

I'm trying desperately to keep up my weightloss during Bandster Hell.  It would break my heart to regress or to not lose any weight between now and when I get restriction.

To avoid this possibility I've started keeping an online food log at  I'm trying to keep my caloric intake below 1000 and keep a good balance of protein, carbs, and fat.  Yesterday I didn't get near enough protein.  I only had one protein shake to supplement my protein intake.

Another way I plan to avoid gaining, I need to pick up the exercise.  I've noticed on LBT that those who are super successful exercise.  It's just so hard right now because I get embarrassed, but I have to get over that.