Got my blood work back and it's not good. Lipids AND sugars keep going up. My doctor is concerned. So, she's putting me on meds for both. On top of that, I have to check my blood sugar each day.
I'm not diabetic. My blood sugar levels are actually about 150, but a normal person's are under 120. So I'm pre-diabetic. I'm sad and angry at myself. I knew my sugars were high, but did nothing about it and chose to ignore it. Now it threatens my surgery date.
On top of that, my mom is so incredibly UNSUPPORTIVE of this whole thing. She doesn't want me to get the procedure and never has, but she doesn't understand. She's 5'2" and 110lb. She has no idea what I've gone through my entire life. She continues to think that by diet and exercise alone, I can lose the weight. Yes, mom, I can, but history shows that I can't keep it off.
When I told her about my test results she just said, "Well, sometimes you need a baseball bat to the head. And maybe this is a sign you should postpone the surgery indefinitely." Eff that. Sorry, mom.
Another thing: I found out that my parents have told their parents about my procedure. My grandparents are the Mouths of the South. They tell everyone everything they know. I just wish they could keep this within the immediate family. It's my news, my business, and my problem...not theirs.
Ugh. Complete frustration lately! Someone throw me a bone!
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Friday, October 23, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Slightly down...in a bad way.
I've been kind of down lately...and not in the I've lost weight sense. No, no. I've gained, I'm pretty sure.
That's the bad thing about scheduling your surgery so far out...you know it's coming up, you know you are going to be making changes, so why not go balls to the wall now? And that's just what I've done. I know I'll be losing weight come Nov. 21, so until then I've been eating worse than ever before. For serious.
However, it has caught up with me. For the past 2 months, I've had a bag of Halloween candy in my office that I snack on whenever I want...Laffy Taffy, Nerds and SweetTarts. So, I had to go get blood work done last week to check my fats and she checked my sugars, too. They went skyrocketing, as did my fats. So, I must now be very very careful for the next month until she checks them again. If they don't go down, she's going to tell my bariatric surgeon the results and my surgery may have to be pushed back until these numbers can get under control. :(
The last thing I want is for my surgery to be pushed back so I'm really going to work hard at this. Let this be a lesson to all those who are considering surgery: don't think that just because you are PLANNING on having it you can eat what you want now. You still have to try to be healthy.
That's the bad thing about scheduling your surgery so far out...you know it's coming up, you know you are going to be making changes, so why not go balls to the wall now? And that's just what I've done. I know I'll be losing weight come Nov. 21, so until then I've been eating worse than ever before. For serious.
However, it has caught up with me. For the past 2 months, I've had a bag of Halloween candy in my office that I snack on whenever I want...Laffy Taffy, Nerds and SweetTarts. So, I had to go get blood work done last week to check my fats and she checked my sugars, too. They went skyrocketing, as did my fats. So, I must now be very very careful for the next month until she checks them again. If they don't go down, she's going to tell my bariatric surgeon the results and my surgery may have to be pushed back until these numbers can get under control. :(
The last thing I want is for my surgery to be pushed back so I'm really going to work hard at this. Let this be a lesson to all those who are considering surgery: don't think that just because you are PLANNING on having it you can eat what you want now. You still have to try to be healthy.